Instructions Please

Well, it's May 3.
I made it through my auditions.

I got into college. 

I'm almost done with my schoolwork.
I have very few worries.

But for some reason, I feel unsatisfied.

Musically, I feel like all year I have only had the time to rush through pieces. Some of the prescreenings I recorded were of pieces I learned only a few days before recording them in my kitchen. Some of the pieces I played in my audition were learned a week before. The recital I played just recently was of a piece I pulled together in less than a month. And now if I want to do a senior recital, I'll have to work really fast for that too.

Academically, well...I'm home-schooled. I read my badly written 1970s textbooks alone in my dad's office at Clayton State University, and I'll receive my diploma....in the mail.

Socially, well once again I'm home-schooled. Enough said.

This summer I'm going to China and then spending the rest alone while the majority of my friends go to camp or vacation or something.

It's all kind of... anticlimactic.
...
Now what?
I want a bang! A huge celebration! Fireworks! Sky-writing!

Not really.
But it would be nice if there was some kind of formal closure. If anything, I just want the feeling of closure. That would be enough.