Summer Goals!...and a little bit of sadness

I'M DONE WITH MY SCHOOL WORK!
WHOOOOOOOO!

I have a busy few days coming and very little motivation to get through them, but I'll try my best.
Tomorrow I have a short gig where I get to play a piece I wrote last summer (but am pretty bad at playing), and I have to relearn a Bach movement by tomorrow as well.
And then Saturday I have the union scholarship audition and ASYO dinner and another event.
And then Sunday is our last ASYO concert...:( I feel achy and confused when I think about it. But then we're going to party until I leave for China at around 5 am or so the next morning. :D

I need to say goodbye! AGH! GOODBYE?
I hate saying goodbye...
I have to visit my 5th grade teacher. I have to thank Ms. Bryan and Mrs. Link and Mrs. Miller for writing recommendations for me.
I have to say goodbye to Lori Gene and Dan and Lindsay and...and Mr. Flint...:( and all of ASYO...

...

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

At least...*sniff*...at least I don't have to say goodbye to Mr. Pu or Mr. Christy yet. (Yet.)

What a sad feeling. That "weird" feeling I got a month ago is finally sinking in. On the one hand, I feel the finality I was looking for. On the other, I feel terrible sadness, and I can't do much about it.

...except look forward to the future :D
Well my immediate future is pretty scary.
And then after these next few days I'll be coasting in relaxation.
I hate relaxing.
So here's a list of things I'd like to get done this summer:

- Host a garage sale! :D
- Make a blooper reel for Jere's 30th anniversary video
- Reread all the Harry Potter books.
- Go to Six Flags and SURVIVE.
- Learn how to tame my hair, bleh

(as you can see from above, I'm highly ambitious)

- Write a violin duet
- Work on Ysaye No. 5
- Learn how to ice skate! In honor of my fan-dom for Mirai Nagasu and Mao Asada.

Instructions Please

Well, it's May 3.
I made it through my auditions.

I got into college. 

I'm almost done with my schoolwork.
I have very few worries.

But for some reason, I feel unsatisfied.

Musically, I feel like all year I have only had the time to rush through pieces. Some of the prescreenings I recorded were of pieces I learned only a few days before recording them in my kitchen. Some of the pieces I played in my audition were learned a week before. The recital I played just recently was of a piece I pulled together in less than a month. And now if I want to do a senior recital, I'll have to work really fast for that too.

Academically, well...I'm home-schooled. I read my badly written 1970s textbooks alone in my dad's office at Clayton State University, and I'll receive my diploma....in the mail.

Socially, well once again I'm home-schooled. Enough said.

This summer I'm going to China and then spending the rest alone while the majority of my friends go to camp or vacation or something.

It's all kind of... anticlimactic.
...
Now what?
I want a bang! A huge celebration! Fireworks! Sky-writing!

Not really.
But it would be nice if there was some kind of formal closure. If anything, I just want the feeling of closure. That would be enough.

Mommy!

I've had a Xanga since the beginning of time (for 7 years now) and I finally decided to open up a blogger. There's pretty much no difference between Xanga and Blogger, but I'm strangely giddy about starting one of these. I'm having fun picking out my layout and trying to decide what I'm going to write about; it's like a brand-new start!

I guess I find comfort in the starting of a new blog because right now we seniors are in the midst of an ending. Graduation gowns have been ordered, yearbook staffs are proofreading a few last times (although clearly embarrassing pictures are usually never filtered out in mercy), graduation party invites are spilling in everyone's Facebooks. Even though I'm home-schooled and I pretty much started summer vacation back in August 2009, there's that air of finality with me as well. We probably all have mixed feelings about it but doesn't everyone find it...a bit strange?

This is the pivotal point in our lives where "home" is a little less like home but more as a checkpoint we return to when we want to or feel the need to, and when we start finding our parents just a little less annoying and start to really understand their significance. This is our first BIG step away from home. I'd like to think a year at boarding school and four summers away at music festivals might have prepared me, but I have a feeling I'm in for some big, big surprises.

So these days, I've started seeing my parents in a new light. They are really...pretty cute. I've gotten more urges to hug them lately...I'm hoping, despite all my years as Bitchy Daughter, I'll be able to make this summer at home with my parents worthwhile.

I NEED TO FIND A SUMMER JOB! Anyone want to hire me? ...no, seriously, anyone?

Who else is staying home this summer?